Where to begin? I have been wanting to tell my story of faith through the toughest times in my life. Since I became pregnant with our daughter I have felt like God was wanting me to share my story to help someone else who may be going through the same storm. Know this, that storm will not last forever. He will give you joy if you seek it.
Four years ago began the biggest mountain I had to climb. My husband and I were finally ready to start a family and we were so excited for the journey. What we didn't know is how hard this journey would be for the both of us. Excited, thrilled, scared was what we felt as we would be responsible for a tiny human when the time came.
Months dragged on and no tiny human.
What was going on? Was it me, him or both of us?
We thought it would be so easy. No one in our family has experienced problems so what could it be? A trip to the doctor was the key, right? Almost 2 years into this we decided to seek professional support. Upon visiting with the doctor she explained how sometimes things affect the process and what could be done about it. I was sent home a packet for some tests that were to be done the following month.
During all of this I can not tell you how many nights I cried myself to sleep. Knowing that this may not happen for us. That we would not have our own child. But then, one day, it hit me like a train crashing into a concrete wall. God has this! After 2 years of agony and the realization that this one thing we wanted so badly would not happen, I had to remind myself. GOD IS IN CONTROL. I finally let go of all the worry and anxiety this storm was causing me in my life and gave it to him, and gave it all. If his plan was for us to not have children I was ok with it. Everything would be ok. We had each other and this life he has blessed us with so I was going to make the most of it and follow his direction. I did not go back to the doctor for testing. In January of 2015 we discovered that we were finally pregnant and welcomed our baby girl into this world on September 14, 2015!
Now, my story will be different than yours. I chose not to do treatments and I know friends who have been blessed by going through those treatments. Whatever happens know this, God loves us. His own son was put through the ringer on this earth. He had a plan then and he is still working in us now. Our God can do anything. He parted the sea, flooded the earth, and healed the sick. He is still working these same miracles today and I know that he will in your life if you just have complete and total faith in him always. Even if the outcome is different than what you had planned. He's got you!
God is Good, all of the time!
This story was very personal to me but I can not ignore when the holy spirit is telling me to give a testimony. I pray that if you do go through a life storm of any sort, that you will pray and lay it down at his feet. Trust him and let him work through you. God wants us to love him completely and keep our faith no matter what this life throws at us.
Fast forward to the present and now our little girl is 2 years old! Life has given us other obstacles since this one and always will. It's life, it will never be easy all of the time. Each time we have a curve ball thrown at us I seek him and I remember the battle we fought then and how God helped us over come. Seek him first in everything you do or go through. He will carry you through it. No matter the outcome our God is good and always has a plan. Never lose your faith in him and never stop loving him. I don't know what I would do without him by my side, he gives me hope and joy. I am beyond blessed with this life.
"Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, Move from here to there, and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you" Matthew 17: 20-21